DemonicPlant

#thesoundofsilencemovement
The Sound Of Silence - DA StatementSo Eclipse is Coming
SEE MY LATEST JOURNAL ON THIS HERE:

I'd like to organize a proactive event to show DA the possible results of a permanent Eclipse change-over. Instead of deactivating your accounts for good, or indefinitely boycotting the site, I'd like to make a Statement of Silence for those Users against Eclipse. Starting May 1st, I will not be active on Deviantart. I will not submit new deviations, journals or even visit the site for 3 Days time. From 12:00AM CST May 1st to 12:00am May 4th. (3 days) I ask all other Users who wish to keep old Deviantart to join me in this statement of silence. 
Not Only Is Eclipse Difficult to Navigate, It is so close to Plagiarism it isnt funny. How they aren't in a Lawsuit with Artstation is beyond me!
Look at these site comparisons!
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Eclipse sucks and is limiting users.
Here's a good example from a popular stock reference deviant artists that I'm sure a lot of you know about
Rules Change + DEJ 2020Rule Change
Hey all! Since Eclipse is coming in May, I will lose my drag and drop functionality from my inbox. This was the primary way I was collecting pose reference usages. At this point, due to the layout change and other presses on my time, I will no long be even pretending to see and collect all the art used from my stock.
Therefore, the requirement to show me your art that used my poses as a reference has been removed from the rules. 
Images where the actual photo is used in whole or in part in new works (i.e. photo manipulations) are still required to show and credit me. 
I updated the English rules but the various language translations are now out of date.
You can keep showing me your art if you want to! Seeing art is the best part of doing poses, honestly. And I will still be collecting things when I can.
Other than DA, you can tag me when you

So anyways fuck Eclipse. 
I was gonna move to a new account however I'd rather eat my hand then use eclipse.
So guess I'm gonna have to work on completely reconstructing my account
this is gonna take days... any tips?

I'm gonna stop my shit posting and talk like a human.
Who's still left here on DA. I know some of my old pals are still here. It's bitter sweet. Maybe we can reconnect. 

Why did I stop using Deviant Art?
I think it was mostly because it runs like balls on my computer. Not sure.

They say high school is the best years of your life but that is a blatant lie. At least for me.
High school was really rough on me. 2016 was the year of my first real depression. Ever since then it has been rather consistent, summer is my depression time. Ironic right? I haven't been depressed this year but I'm worried I will be.

But anyways a lot has happened in my life since I've been gone. It's actually probably a good thing I wasn't on deviant art because I probably would have made you guys depressed/annoyed for months lol.

I'm going to go into more detail on things that happened. If you don't care or don't want to hear about death... uh stop reading now.

okay?





alright for the rest of you. 

So I had really bad depression through school as I mentioned. round 2017 (I think, depression makes time a blur) I got a psychologist for a year and new medication. My psychologist was excellent and my medication helped me with my anxiety. Oh yeah I have really really bad anxiety but it's second nature to me so I hardly notice. My medication worked well, made me not get nervous while walking by some students to use the vending machine. So that was good.

Then my psychologist retired. I was so freaking sad. I got a new one and I felt like she was trying to push me out. I was too polite to ask for a new one so I was stuck with a psychologist who just didn't click right. So anyways I missed a few appointments because I was feeling better and the damn psychologist dumped me. She didn't even tell me. Just boom, no more seeing her. So that happened.

Anyways I struggled with school as usual. And then it was new years. I cried on new years because of something private, so I knew it was gonna be a rough year. 
It became rougher when a few days later my mother told me my uncles dog got hit by a car. That was hard enough, but as if it were some fucked up for shadowing, on January 7th my uncle was found dead in his home. He was murdered.

As children I find that we toy with edgy characters that murder. Especially if you're into creepy pastas. Murders like jeff the kill are romanticized. Why? Because it feels so distant. Murder is so intense and it'll never happen to anyone close to you. But when it does... it changes everything. Watching movies where someone is killed is hard. No matter the person they have a family. The media didn't make it easier. My uncle had a past with drugs, however he was sober for a year until he was murdered. The media, however doesn't care. They immediately aired out his dirty laundry, and told the readers about how he had a past with drugs, as if justifying his murder. Do you know how hard that was? I was so angry and sad. Coming to terms with it was so difficult. I kept 'forgetting' he was dead then remembering it over and over. I even do it sometimes now a day. 

Anyways that was rough but then mum made some bad decisions and moved in with someone she only knew for a week (dragging me along of course). He was abusive and destroyed my confidence. That coupled with depression and grief. Well I planned to kill my self. I'm surprised I'm still alive to be honest. 

Then my long distance gf's home burnt down. That was really hard on both of us. She lost so much and I couldn't be there to support her. That tore me apart.

I'm an adult now, unemployed and taking care of my disabled mother. Just moved (for like the 14th time) Life is ech.

Anyways I just needed to scream my feelings out into the universe to get it off my chest.